The Long Way Home


Snowbound
February 23, 2015, 6:32 AM
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January: Gem Way

January: Gem Way

The world stops when it snows, and with it, I nest. I have felt low, trying to figure out where my art is going and what, in general, to do next. And I recently received heartbreaking news about a dear old friend, which I’m trying to process. I’m being vague, but it’s something I don’t want to go into detail right now (to protect her privacy as well as my heart). In short: I’ve been in hiding.

Gem Way to Penn Avenue

Gem Way to Penn Avenue

I remind myself that it’s okay to take these small breaks from life and tune out for a while. One of my biggest dreams is for one solid week of peace without distraction. It’s funny how years ago, I wanted bigger and bigger things, and as I grow older, my desires become much less complicated.

snow days

snow days

We’re in the thick of a deep-freeze which has made it difficult and uninspiring to go on long adventures, so instead, I wake early and bundle up, tucking my pajamas into boots, and trek out back through Gem Way, circling around to Penn. Morning snow crunches underfoot, the occasional car drives past, reminding me I’m still in the city. It feels as if I’m the only one awake on this well-traveled road, snow falling, camera clicking. I realize I don’t have to go far to get what I want.

fences

fences

wonderland

wonderland

when the world stops

when the world stops

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Secret Doors, Open Spaces
September 12, 2013, 5:48 PM
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balancing act

balancing act

So here we are, September. I’m still recuperating from our trip South a few weeks ago (travelog to come in future post). The day job has been super busy, so after work, I am mentally exhausted: posting photos becomes a substitution for words.  Last week, as I walked home down Gem Way (the alley behind our house that, upon first look, is really kind of terrifying), I noticed all this beautiful ivy growing in our neighbor’s yard/parking space. So each day after work, I turned their yard into a makeshift photo studio (I hope they don’t mind). One day I dragged our heavy oak desk chair as a prop, then another, a pile of books. My audience was another neighbor’s “guard” dog, a beautiful husky mix that never once barked, but looked curiously at me as I stood on the chair, then jumped off, then settled on sitting in it after all. I want to track this place through the seasons, documenting bits of nature through cityscape.

first day

a discovery

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i spy

i spy

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door

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Late Summer
August 11, 2013, 8:53 AM
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Pittsburgh on a hot July evening

Pittsburgh on a hot July evening

I don’t want to be one of those people who boasts how “busy” they are just to make themselves sound important. We’re all busy, but my busy-ness, I realize lately, is a self-imposed one, a way for me to push off feeling what I need to wade through: this business of grief. It’s year three, I’m starting to feel “normal” again, and this in itself is confusing. I’ll get to that in another post, but I’ve taken on too much, thinking I can do it all, when I just need to learn to feel the moment, right? Our goal for 2013 was “Get Shit Organized,” and so far, it’s working: a savings plan in place, paying down debt, cleaning up the studio (which has taken over a month. As you can imagine, we had a lot of things to clear out of there to make it workable again). There are setbacks, but hey, I roll with the punches – albeit with loads of anxiety, which makes some days a little precarious to balance. Things that have given me a push: photography, of course. And reading old Nancy Drew books. Oh, and indulging in all seven seasons of Tales from the Crypt, which Jeff hates because he thinks the crypt keeper is really lame. Friends who know me better than anyone. Knowing that when it all comes down to it, it’ll all work out.

standing in the space of "nowhere house"

standing in the space of “nowhere house”

we parked and found this

pittsburgh chair 

my first full-length photo shoot in our rearranged studio

a photo shoot in our rearranged studio

experimenting with available light

experimenting with available light

found graffiti on s. windebiddle

found graffiti on s. windebiddle

one last shot in the spectra. i ran out of the house to capture it.

one last shot in the spectra. i ran out of the house to capture it.



Polaroid Week: Days 1 & 2
July 16, 2013, 11:17 PM
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sunflower garden – day one

It’s Polaroid Week in the instant film world, and I thought I’d track my days’ posts here. This year I decided to stick around my neighborhood and take new photos of places you may have seen pop up in other photos – notice the infamous graffiti wall in our backyard? Now covered in gorgeous sunflowers almost as tall as I am. It’s moments like these that I really love my home, through all seasons.

5100 s. millvale

5100 n. winebiddle – day one

camp ohio - day two

camp ohio – day two

self-portrati with flower and polaroid (beside me) - day two

self-portrait with flower and polaroid (beside me) – day two



As if the Sky Were on Fire
August 5, 2012, 10:08 PM
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You can’t see it in these photos, but below the rooftops – the fire escape, the chimneys –  lies the remains of the building next to ours, a crumbling, broken mess cast under a fiery light. The sunset made our entire living room glow in this strange yellow, like a filter over a camera lens. The light beckoned me to the back of our place; the beauty of an after-storm sky made me climb off my couch and out into the rubble pile, in my pajamas no less, Jeff watching from the porch to make sure I didn’t step on glass or wander too far off without shoes because when I get caught in a photo moment, I am only in that moment.

 

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