Filed under: Pennsylvania | Tags: garfield, pittsburgh, polaroid, px680, pz680, summer diary
I don’t want to be one of those people who boasts how “busy” they are just to make themselves sound important. We’re all busy, but my busy-ness, I realize lately, is a self-imposed one, a way for me to push off feeling what I need to wade through: this business of grief. It’s year three, I’m starting to feel “normal” again, and this in itself is confusing. I’ll get to that in another post, but I’ve taken on too much, thinking I can do it all, when I just need to learn to feel the moment, right? Our goal for 2013 was “Get Shit Organized,” and so far, it’s working: a savings plan in place, paying down debt, cleaning up the studio (which has taken over a month. As you can imagine, we had a lot of things to clear out of there to make it workable again). There are setbacks, but hey, I roll with the punches – albeit with loads of anxiety, which makes some days a little precarious to balance. Things that have given me a push: photography, of course. And reading old Nancy Drew books. Oh, and indulging in all seven seasons of Tales from the Crypt, which Jeff hates because he thinks the crypt keeper is really lame. Friends who know me better than anyone. Knowing that when it all comes down to it, it’ll all work out.
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